Instill...drop by drop

I'm realizing that when I try to make things happen my way, in my time.. I get nothing. When I try to cater to what I think everyone else wants to see, hear or read...I only end up disappointing myself. Sure, it may be exactly what others want...but the process it takes to get there... only looks like a failed attempt to me. When I strive to say the right things, or work for the approval of another, I find myself more lost than when I started. I can't make words form, or songs come when I'm doing it for another, because they're not the One that instilled that passion in me. Did you know that the definition of 'instill' is to put in drop by drop? What a thought... drop by drop. These ideas, inspirations, songs, giftings are still being released into us..drop by drop; that at the age of 85, I still will not be fully filled with thoughts of heaven. My point being, how can I force something to come that hasn't yet been released? Of course I will disappoint myself in straining to make something come when the timing isn't right. I can only seek the heart of Papa-God, the One who's releasing everything and learn that these "drops" will only come in seeking His face. If there's a stream, you can usually follow it and be led to a much bigger body of water. The Holy Spirit is our Living Water, my guess is He's the biggest body of water there is, drops are usually associated with liquid, water being a liquid, Water= Holy Spirit, it makes sense that by chasing after Him, spending time in His presence...things might get done a lot faster and without strain and be perfected and molded into exactly how He intended it... one single drop at a time, or maybe the forecast says heavy rains in which we are completely soaked deeper than the bone...to the heart, with the activity of heaven.. either way, I'll take those drops because they're more significant than anything I could ever do out of my own power or will. Each drop is a sweet taste of my Jesus, which also creates a delicious post-rain smell that only causes me to crave more...more of Him drop More of His presence drop, drop more of His ideas and plans drop drop drop

To instill is to put in drop by drop